Identity?

In the social jungle of human existence, there is no feeling of being alive without a sense of identity.
— Erik Erikson

Hello all,

 

I was born in Romania. I was born in a time of change and confusion, in a time when people didn't knew what to do with their hard earned freedom, concept that is still put under the question. I was born in a place that I remember being beautiful, but in time it became ugly, desolated, and deserted where no efforts were put into its reconstruction. I was born in a challenged family, where we appreciate honesty and justice, fair gain, good heart and humour. We also believe in luck and courage. In forgiveness and understanding. We had problems, of all kind. But we are still together, as a family. 

Romania in Europe                                                                                                                                             Source: Wikimedia

I was born in Romania, a southeastern-central European country that was released from the communism 25 years ago. I was one year old when many people got into the streets and died for their freedom. I was very young when this happened but the echo of their shouts followed the next years, and they are becoming more and more powerful every day. People are still fighting for their freedom, for their well being, for justice, for happiness and peace.

I grew up in Romania. I went to school in Romania, I studied, I learned, I created and succeeded there. I worked and gained money there. I have friends and beautiful memories from there. I also suffered, got disappointed, disillusioned and betrayed by the place, the system and the people that I put my trust into. Some of my dreams died before they were born because of the inhospitable environment. I guess that's life... maybe everywhere. Maybe it's a matter of fortune, or maybe it's a matter of know-how that dictates the fate of a dream... I don't know yet. What I do know is the fact that I have to work hard and have faith in order to create my dreams into reality and even though I learned this lesson at a very young age I am still learning everyday how not to forget it. 

I decided to leave Romania and test my luck and know-how in a different country. I decided to leave Romania also because the perspective of living in a place where I can't fulfil my dreams seemed unbearable. The poor economics, the corrupt and inefficient system, the incapable and irresponsible politicians, the lack of opportunities to grow and develop were on my list when I was thinking of reasons to leave. The curiosity, the strong desire to learn and become better, the opportunity to explore and discover new places and cultures, and the chance to uncover myself outside of my comfort zone were on the same list.

I moved to Denmark almost 3 years ago. The scene changed but the game follows the same thread: creating, building and following my dreams. I am a foreigner in Denmark, my status is changed, therefore the image that I have about my identity changes as well. The question of identity grows bigger and bigger in my thoughts and the matter becomes more and more complex with every angle that I approach it. Going from the most clear awareness of who I am to the most blurry and confusing image of myself I try to draw the lines of my character and my identity, of who I am and who I want to be and what would be my role in the story of life. This exploration brings its satisfactions but it also comes with a big deal of challenges: emotions of all sorts, from happiness to depression, from ecstasy to desperation; the road from lightness to darkness and backwards shapes the image of my self, my soul, my heart and my mind, outlines the image of the woman, the artist, the daughter, the sister, the friend, the lover, the partner, the student, the citizen that I am. It is, perhaps, a never ending journey into the material and spiritual worlds, into the physical and cultural territories aiming to get to a more complete image of who I am, where I am coming from and where I am going to, a back and forth travel between past and present with a vision about the future. 

I was born in Romania, I am living in Denmark, I am an artist, I am a woman, I am a daughter, I am a sister, I am a friend, I am a lover, I am a partner, I am a student of life, I am a citizen of this world. I will be a mother. I will be a grand mother. I will be a great artist and human being. 

I am Andreea Vlad!

"Identity" - drawing, pastel on paper, 115 x 195 cm, 2014


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